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Monday, February 28, 2011

facebook and twitter are so open i have to be cautious of what I say. This blog has become my only venting ground..

I MISS TJ
I MISS AHS

I FUCKING MISS SCHOOL LIFE.

I WANT A TIME MACHINE. NOW.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Today is supposed to be my happiest day of the week,
because..
1) I finally met up with leeyingsss!! And I spent the whole afternoon w her ^^
2) Managed to see gracifooz on her first bookout! Miss her like siao.

Until your text came in.. And it got me thinking..

I'm tired. Why do I feel that no matter how hard I try, I just cannot get that bit of time out of your busy schedule. I ask you out, you're not free. I text you, you take hours to reply, or sometimes you don't even bother. This really sucks. There were so many times I felt like giving up, but then your smiley texts make me feel guilty if I were to ignore you. I treasure our friendship a lot, and you're one whom I thought we could still be close even after we graduate. But why, don't the memories in the past 2 years mean anything to you at all?! We spent almost 90% of the time in sch tgt, and these 2 years had been so fun because you were part of it. Since A levels ended, I've been wanting to catch up with you, know what you're busy with and your plans during the holidays. But you're always so preoccupied with something else. Until now. I do not want a virtual friend whom I can only talk to on facebook and not any further. But if that's the only way to stay close to you, I'll accept it 'cos I still can't let it go. But I'm sorry to say that you are not gonna be my one of my priorities anymore. Because I don't feel that you're giving a fucking damn about my life, about me. This one-way friendship is too tiring. No one has ever made me feel like this before. A fucking loser who desperately wants your attention.

If I were to check my phone now and should I see your text, I know my heart is gonna go soft again. FUCK I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO NICE TO YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

k shall stop blogging. It gets me so emotional and I fucking hate this feeling. I wanna be happy. And I'm not gonna let this affect me.

THE END

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Just came back from dinner at Paradise Pavilion w relatives! And they're planning a trip to Genting/ HK (macau) in mar/ apr! :D I want to tag along hahaha

Browsed through the Brightsparks magazine (yes i brought it to work) in the morning today and I feel pumped up to go for a couple of scholarships! But this needs some serious consideration.

I guess I more or less know what uni course i wanna take. I will go for NUS pharmacy :D Looks pretty not bad. If not other science courses like Chemistry& Applied Chemistry (Food Sciences and Technology) or Life Sciences are interesting too.

Honestly, Maritime Studies in NTU attracts me as well, but I'm not sure if I really want this. After all it's not a mainstream course and I wonder if my parents will approve of it :/

Oh well, let's see where my results will take me.

GOOD LUCK PEEPS, one more weeeeek! :X

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

hmm I'm bored.

I shall bring my poddie in tmr and learn how to sing all the korean songs! (: or perhaps I shall download some videos heehee.

okay back to A Thousand Splendid Suns for now (:

lovely text from friends never fail to brighten up my day!! ^^

WHY IS ADMIN JOB SO FUCKING TIRING! NOT MUCH THINGS TO DO AS A RECEPTIONIST BUT I FEEL SO JADED EVERYTIME I REACH HOME :'(

I WONDER HOW MY MUM CAN SURVIVE IN THE OFFICE FOR THE WHOLE DAY FOR DECADES... :O

THANKFULLY IT'S JUST 5 MORE DAYS TO GO AND I'M DONE! (:

LOOKING FORWARD TO ALL THE CAMPS OH YEAHH ^^

LOVE HOW I'M LIVING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. I STILL MISS SCHOOL DAYS THOUGH.

K GOTTA BE UP BY 7 AGAIN TMR SHALL HIT THE BED NOW GOODNIGHT!

YOU'RE AWESOME (:

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

4th day of work and still surviving! Luckily there's quite a bit of work to do today if not i'll be so fucking bored. Sitting on the chair and staring at the main entrance, all alone at my receptionist desk hahaha! The ppl thr r quite friendly (: Love it how they'll smile back when I greet them :)

Met up for a short while w my soulsistaz despite feeling so so tired! Never regret it though. Honestly, when all of them started working at brewerkz except me and fooz, I was rly afraid that I would slowly be left out. But no, even after so long, I know I'm still part of them which makes me wanna work at brewerkz even more! :) Hopefully i'll be able to join them in april ^^

They are the ones whom I know I can TRUST throughout my whole life <3

Sunday, February 13, 2011

feeling so happy right now now now! :D
because...
1) gracifooz who is in tekong now called mee! <3 life in tekong seems really harsh :( but I have faith in u sista!! ^^
2) my superlovingcaring sis lent me some clothes for work hehe.
3) my life is so awesome :>

hahaha k I'm keeping this blog alive for u my number 1 stalker! :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Hi, Are You Really Very Boreddd?!

HAHAHA THIS IS 4 U SUSIE PUSIE!

Swimming today at SIA Group Sports Club w you was soo tiring! (mentally) But the sense of accomplishment after 30laps made it worthwhile (; And I had Murtabak for the first time woohoo ^^ YUMMY!! *guilty.fat.guiltyguilty.fatfat* HAHAHAHA

I know you missed THIRTY MINS of your AI because you waited for the bus w me.. AWWW. But hey there's a repeat telecast right?! hehehe so you made the right decision by staying! YOU ROCK LA OKAY LUV U!

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you I was afraid to kiss you.
When I kissed you I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.
xoxo, yy.

HEHEHE nah, here's the love msg which you wanted ^^ (just in case you dont check your fb msg!)

And, I think we're damn cute. We actually talked to each other over the phone just to book the same day same timing for our etrials hahahaha! This is why you're my ZHDPY ^^

okay, i shall go watch my shows now. GO DO YOUR WORK LAH! BE CAREFEUL YOUR SUPERVISOR'S WATCHING U! ><

"Oh My God!"
"YES?"

:D