Today is supposed to be my happiest day of the week,
because..
1) I finally met up with leeyingsss!! And I spent the whole afternoon w her ^^
2) Managed to see gracifooz on her first bookout! Miss her like siao.

Until your text came in.. And it got me thinking..

I'm tired. Why do I feel that no matter how hard I try, I just cannot get that bit of time out of your busy schedule. I ask you out, you're not free. I text you, you take hours to reply, or sometimes you don't even bother. This really sucks. There were so many times I felt like giving up, but then your smiley texts make me feel guilty if I were to ignore you. I treasure our friendship a lot, and you're one whom I thought we could still be close even after we graduate. But why, don't the memories in the past 2 years mean anything to you at all?! We spent almost 90% of the time in sch tgt, and these 2 years had been so fun because you were part of it. Since A levels ended, I've been wanting to catch up with you, know what you're busy with and your plans during the holidays. But you're always so preoccupied with something else. Until now. I do not want a virtual friend whom I can only talk to on facebook and not any further. But if that's the only way to stay close to you, I'll accept it 'cos I still can't let it go. But I'm sorry to say that you are not gonna be my one of my priorities anymore. Because I don't feel that you're giving a fucking damn about my life, about me. This one-way friendship is too tiring. No one has ever made me feel like this before. A fucking loser who desperately wants your attention.

If I were to check my phone now and should I see your text, I know my heart is gonna go soft again. FUCK I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO NICE TO YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

k shall stop blogging. It gets me so emotional and I fucking hate this feeling. I wanna be happy. And I'm not gonna let this affect me.

THE END